I just retired and these have allowed me to clear a lot of emotional baggage, to increase my self esteem and self love as well as opening up myheart to others.
By Summer I intend to pick some kind of creative project and invoke my new skills and lack of baggage to successfully start, enjoy and complete some kind of project of an artistic nature. It's just a goal of mine that excites me and that will mark the achievement of something that I have always wanted to do but for some reason never had the energy or fortitude to do.
Over the course of a couple of months, I've gotten rid of a lot of guilt and negative feelings about myself, there was a lot and as I began this process more and more issues came up. I thought they would never end BUT the processes of purging these thoughts and feelings from my body actually worked and now I will, for my own joy, continue learning techniques to increase all that I decide to increase. To me this is fun, exciting and very growth-oriented.
I can't believe the new me, or the me that was buried so deep inside that is now emerging.
What creative project I choose to do in a few months doesn't matter because it's doing the incredible processes and seeing how they work is really what excites me. To me this is the ultimate fun. I've become way more confident, I've opened up with my mom about intimate subjects for the first time ever (and at 92 for the first time she has enjoyed such talks), my need to use my poor decisions of my past to make apologies for past behavior is gone, I'm standing upon new ground ready to interact with the world in a new way.